We rented the Lion King CD from the library the other day. Nithin has been playing it over and over in the car since then. He demands a song by number and it has to be replayed till eternity. After couple of reruns, you start hating that song.
But this song left me pondering and wishing for a state of "Hakuna Matata" - a state of no worries - it is a 'problem-free' philosophy.
A big change in me in the recent years is something I never used to do before. Worrying has become my hobby now. I find it so hard to control my mind when the thoughts spin and spin.
Looking from the outside world, I am in a comfortable state and there should be many blessings I have to count. I do recognize that and I am grateful for my life. But all said and done, I have become much more emotionally weak than even before. Different people have different worries. Mine has been related to job/work/career for sometime now. The layoff experience has left me petrified. Adjusting to new work life has been an uphill. It is getting better - I would compare it to the first few months with a new born baby. People say it gets better over months - but each day has to pass, it is a struggle every day - feeding and diapering and wondering why he/she cries. Some days are easy, some are crazy, but no matter what you have to live through this phase to get to a point where you can enjoy the baby. I think that is what I am going through now. Taking life one day at a time!
3 comments:
No need to be petrified Anamika. Just remind yourself that you did survive the layoff and came out stronger. Sometimes it's good to worry about something - it means you care!
:) or "ahhll is well" works too...Hakuna Matata indeed...was gonna mail, wont be able to meet on Thu :( - will have to make it another time...talk soon, love UL
Life is no easy - nothing comes so easy - when we born, the silver spoon was not there. As a child - did you ever worry for anything ? No.... cause you had unshakable faith in your parents. Keep your faith in GOD now and the rest will be so fine in life.
Gopal
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